Before you send anything to me, please remember that there is a person behind this blog- a person who struggles with problems and emotions just as you do, a person with opinions and thoughts and feelings and responses. What you say has very real consequences, online and IRL, to me and to other people. At the same time, please never hesitate to come to me if you ever need anything.

Posts may be triggering for self-injury, suicidal thoughts, or eating disorders (very rarely), but I will ALWAYS tag them as such and post them under a gap whenever possible. I also do my best to tag possible epilepsy triggering posts, although I often forget, and if you have a specific thing that you would like me to post behind a cut/tag I will absolutely do that for you, no questions asked or comments made or anything. Just tell me! I also try to provide text descriptions of images for those of you who are visually impaired. 

No graphics or GIFs are my own unless I seem particularly infinitely proud about them. I often do post pictures, as in, from my camera, and those are fine to repost/reblog/eat if you would like to. Just credit me if it’s not too much trouble. 

This is not a spoiler free zone, especially not for material that has already been released. If I can get my hands on something before it’s premiered in my country/state, I will, and I will post about it. However, I do my best to tag it with ‘spoilers’ and the subject matter, when I remember and am not overly fangirling. But, there will be spoilers here. It’s a fandom blog.

I do not always follow back.

I am not always kind, nor am I always happy. Sometimes I will post things in tears just because I can and I’m sad. I often delete posts that I make and am later not proud of. I do not always make sense. This is a personal blog and I will post what I like. 

However, I will never post anything overly immature or mature. No nudity or porn or anything of that nature. 

If I know you IRL, you can really do what you want. I’m not going to send you away, or tell you that this is too personal, but I am warning you that I really honestly do post what I want on here. And some of that is definitely negative. And it might be about you. And it might make you uncomfortable. 

This blog is LGBTQIA* friendly. Whoever you are, I will accept you here as long as you are polite and accepting of everyone else. If you are not polite and accepting of everyone else, I will block you without hesitation. This also applies to things like self-harm and suicide. Be kind. I will not allow jokes about self-harm, suicide, rape, eating disorders, or the like to be thrown about here.

If I’m doing something that you find rude or unacceptable, please let me know so that I can determine if there’s a way to change my behavior. I apologize if I mix up your preferred pronoun accidentally; I do it out of ignorance and not out of disrespect, all questions about pretty much everything are in the same mindset. I am aware that I am privileged and I take full responsibility for anything that I say that is improper or offensive or in any other way inappropriate.

Anon is enabled for your use; I’m not going to criticize you for using it. I often get people asking for advice, and I encourage you to come to me if you ever need anything. I will do my absolute best to help you. 

If you don’t tag me in your post (#johngreenismypatronus), there’s a strong likelihood that I won’t see it! Don’t feel insulted if I don’t reply and I haven’t been tagged, because it’s extremely likely that the post just got lost in my dash.

If your ask is appropriate for answering, I will answer it (generally privately but possibly publicly IF I feel it is something many people may be wondering, too- or obviously if it’s on anon; if you don’t want me to publish something just let me know), and if I don’t answer your message, Tumblr probably ate it. I sometimes do get overwhelmed, though, and leave less-urgent messages for a few days.

If I ever think something is weird or inappropriate about your behavior or if something you say or do makes me feel uncomfortable, I will tell you. I am not afraid to make those boundaries and enforce them. Don’t be afraid to say or do something like add me on Facebook for fear that it’ll make me uncomfortable, because if it does, I’ll just respond by, like, not adding you as a friend, etc. I won’t think any less of you for misjudging those boundaries, especially if I haven’t already stated them, and I won’t be offended or angry.

I… think that’s about it! You can always ask me about any questions you might have, be they about me, or this blog, or Doctor Who, or self injury, or anything you need! Lessthanthree!

Some questions I get asked more frequently than others: 

-What blogs do you run?

-How old are you?

-Is your last name really Granger?

-Did you write that fandom dictionary/all by yourself?

-How do you pronounce your first name?

-What is Nerdfighters?

-What is DFTBA and what does it mean?

-What is Pizza John?

-Have you been diagnosed with a mental disorder?

-What’s your sexuality and gender identity?

-What are your favorite GIFs?

-What’s your Hogwarts house?

-What are your other URLs on the internet?

-What URLs do you have saved/what were your past URLs on Tumblr?

-What’s the fruit question? What fruit would you be?

-Can we add you on Facebook?

-Why do you always use pet names?

-What do you look like without makeup?

-Why do you always post about how you feel?

-What does the “YANA” on your hand mean?

-What is DFYAA?

What blogs do you run?

The Adventures of Pizza John (theadventuresofpizzajohn), the Actually a Person Project (actuallyaperson), co-run Ask a Nerdfighter (askanerdfighter), personal happy blog (wizardpartyforever), co-run climatechangeisreal, The Last Words of Fictional People (lastwordsof-ficitonalpeople), TFiOS in Places it Shouldn’t Be (tfiosinplacesitshouldntbe), The Fuck You I Won A BAFTA Meme (fuckyoumartinfreemanwonabafta), co-run thebullyarchives (MacKenzie’s bully prev project) and obviously this one (johngreenismypatronus). 

How old are you?

I was born on October 28, 1996. 

Is your last name really Granger?

Yeah.

Did you write that fandom dictionary/did you write that dictionary all by yourself? 

Yes and yes. It took a lot of time and effort and I hope you all find it useful. 

How do you pronounce your first name?

My name is Maya, and is pronounced MY-ah. 

What is Nerdfighters?

So basically, there are these two brothers, Hank and John Green. They make videos on YouTube… John Green is an award winning author (Paper Towns, Looking for Alaska, An Abundance of Katherines, Will Grayson, Will Grayson… and soon, The Fault in Our Stars) and Hank Green is a musician and songwriter (So Jokes, Ellen Hardcastle, I’m So Bad At This- Live) and editor of EcoGeek. Nerdfighters is an online community that sprung up as the following/fandom/thing of these videos, but to be a Nerdfighter, you don’t necessarily have to watch the Vlogbrothers… if you want to be a Nerdfighter, then you are one. We fight to increase world awesome and decrease world suck in any of a variety of ways… mostly nerdy ways. Sometimes this involves actually charity sort of work (the Project for Awesome) and sometimes it just involves being cool or making things and stuff. It’s just basically all the awesome-fandom-nerd stuff in the world combined into a single thing.

 A quick explanation of all this and more can be found at the Vlogbrothers FAQ.

Also I suggest you watch the Thoughts From Places videos because those are my favorites. Especially this one.

What is DFTBA, and what does it mean?

DFTBA stands for “Don’t Forget To Be Awesome,” and is the Nerdfighter token initialism. It can also stand for a lot of other things, like “Daleks Fear The British Accent.” 

What is Pizza John?

Pizza John is a sort of insane phenomenon that arose as a result of the Facebook group ‘John Green is Fat,’ and was first mentioned in the subsequent video, ‘John Green is Fat.’ Awesome Nerdfighter Valerie2776 created the Pizza John image, which is John during the five seconds that he had a mustache with the word ‘Pizza’ under his face. 

Basically that’s it! It’s a really weird, creepy picture of John Green that says ‘Pizza’ under it that John liked so much that he wanted to make it a shirt. Since then, it’s sort of become a way to find other Nerdfighters, but… yeah. It’s weird and sort of pointless and I love it like everything.

Have you been diagnosed with a mental disorder? 

I have not and probably will not soon be diagnosed with any sort of disorder (like depression, bipolar disorder, OCD, etc.), although I do suffer from something that would likely be qualified as depression or BPD and also demonstrate signs of obsessive compulsive personality disorder (OCPD). Additionally, I suffer from chronic headaches that have not been tied to any cause, although may be related to stress. They are really bad and I’m on medication for them. It makes me dizzy. I have talked to my parents about seeing a psychiatrist, and I’ve been to see a couple but haven’t liked them yet. I’ll change this if I find someone that fits. 

I used to self-harm fairly regularly and I still struggle with the emotions and the overthinking that lead me to the position where that seemed like a valid and reasonable thing to do and sometimes I do still self-harm and I am not afraid to say so. A lot of people struggle with self-injury in complete silence and I can often see the signs and I see it tear them apart, so I’ve vowed not to do that any longer. I am as open as I can be about this and about how I’m feeling although I do try to keep things on this blog pretty positive and optimistic. 

What’s your sexuality and gender identity?

I am female in body and in identity. My sexuality is a bit more fluid and I’m wary of labeling myself this early in my life, but if you must label me for your own comfort, put me at biromantic and asexual.

What are your favorite GIFs?

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(okay, this isn’t frequently asked, but LOOK AT THOSE GIFS THEY ARE SO PERFECT)

What’s your Hogwarts house? 

I put myself into Slytherin, but Pottermore put me into Ravenclaw.  I have a lot of Slytherin traits, like ambition and a strong desire to be important, but I’m also sort of intellectual. 

What are your other URLs on the internet?

I mostly use freshairandgeniuses, johngreenismypatronus, hermayane, hermayanegranger, grangerdanger1028, grangerdanger10, thesunsgonewibbly, readergirl1028, or adriftintheTARDIS. Actually, I sort of make a point to use entirely unique usernames on every website I use now, but I have an account on most everything, so just send me an ask and I’ll let you know who I am in specific places!

What URLs do you have saved/what were your past URLs on Tumblr?

Past: grangerdanger1028, freshairandgeniuses, hermayanegranger, thedoctorheretohelp. 

Saved: thepatientcenturion, hermayanegranger, freshairandgeniuses, thefuturekind, thedoctorforever, thedoctorheretohelp, imthedoctoriworkinashopnow, iswearidobelieveinnargles, whatkindofnameishermione, scuzzykizoozlecurl, ranavalonathefirst

What’s the fruit question, why does it exist, and what’s your answer to it?

The fruit question (TFQ) is basically just this question that I ask basically everyone. It’s a really great decider of personality and I use it to pretty much judge my entire opinion of you.

What kind of fruit would you be and why? 

It came about because I was trying to think of a personal question to ask people that they wouldn’t be expecting- that way they wouldn’t have an answer prepared to show them off in the best light and it would give a more accurate reading of what kind of person they are. *The trick to answering correctly is in your reasoning, by the way* 

I have this really complicated system for judging proper fruits and reasons. Generally, bananas are bad. Strawberries are bad. Kumquats are bad. But all of these things can be redeemed if you have good reasoning!

The fruit question doesn’t really work on me because it completely loses that whole aura of surprise that makes it a good question in the first place, but I’d be a lychee. 

Darren Criss (banana), Hank Green (one that looks like a penis/corndog fruit), Maureen Johnson (WHO IS FORCING ME TO BE A FRUIT I’LL FIGHT THEM), and a lot of other people have answered TFQ. 

Also I often nickname people based on TFQ.

Can we add you on Facebook?

Go for it. I may or may not respond to your request, though.

Why do you always use pet names?

Well, a lot of the time I don’t know or can’t remember people’s names, and calling them ‘love’ or ‘dear,’ etc., is a great way to get around that because boy is it awkward to call friends by their usernames when you know you should remember their actual names but ooh I am really bad with names. Plus with anons it’s really awkward to just always call them Anon, it makes it harder to relate to.

And it’s just more relatable in general, like, if I say something to you, love, and add that in there, it just sounds more directed towards you and nicer and I dunno I like you guys a lot and I want you to know it so when I call you ‘dear’ or ‘love’ or ‘darling’ it means I think you’re a dear and a darling and I love you.

What do you look like without makeup?

Little bit less evil and a little bit more tired.

Why do you always post about how you feel?

I post about the way that I feel for a couple pretty specific reasons. 

1. Writing about something helps me make sense of it. When I write something down, it allows me to talk all of these crazy thoughts that I have in my head and condense them into something that’s real and something that makes sense. I can look at possibilities and reasons and determine what effects they’ve had. A lot of the time I know that I feel happy or sad or angry but it takes writing about it for me to really understand what else I feel and why I feel that way.

2. Posting about it on Tumblr allows me to go back and look at what I’ve written and what I’ve been feeling in context with everything else- in something like a journal where I only récord feelings, I forget that other things happen that are awesome, too, like talking to my friends and David Tennant. 

3. I feel like it’s important to accurately and honestly tell you guys what’s going on with me. I spend a lot of time trying to give advice and hope to people and I’d feel really false if I didn’t also tell people that sometimes things suck too and I know it. I want you to take what I have to say seriously and believe me when I’m saying something that might seem ridiculously optimistic, and I think that requires seeing me when I’m not ridiculously optimistic, too. And I think it’s important to be  honest to yourself and other people about how you feel.

4. Lots of people tell me that they do actually give a shit about what I’m feeling. I’m really really not good at expressing this sort of stuff to someone face to face, so writing it and then posting it lets my friends know what’s going on with me even when I don’t necessarily feel comfortable telling them. Also, a lot of my friends are from the internet and it seems really unfair to me that my IRL friends would have the chance to determine what’s going on from body language and face when my online ones only have what I say to them to go off of. So I try to say a lot.

What does the “YANA” on your hand mean?

YANA stands for “You Are Not Alone.” 

It’s a kind-of-sort-of Doctor Who reference but I honestly just use that Doctor Who side of it as a reminder of all of the things from Doctor Who and the rest of fandom that keep me strong and keep me happy and a reminder of all of the things that I love. 

Mostly it’s “you are not alone.”

What is DFYAA?

I think think that not forgetting to be awesome is important, but not forgetting that you ARE awesome is important as well. Thusly, I propose a companion initialism to DFTBA- DFYAA. Don’t Forget You Are Awesome.